Remember in Back to the Future, the McFly family photo starts changing? Family members begin to disappear; it's like they're being erased. Eliminated. Eradicated. I don't know what better metaphor there is for my life right now. First I was like Dave McFly, with just my legs hanging around, half of me lingering there riding the roller coaster of emotions from before you ... Read More
The Thing I Didn’t Know I Needed
In November I wrote Before You Left or After You Left. Yesterday I read this, which felt all too familiar. And then I walked into their room-- the room they've never been in, but the room that is nevertheless theirs-- and I noticed the beds were neatly made. It was just the bare mattresses before; because I knew they weren't coming, it didn't make sense to put sheets, pillowcases, and ... Read More
Before You Left or After You Left
I remember things in two categories now; before you left or after you left. Left is the past tense and past participle of leave. To leave, in the sense I mean it, is defined by Merriam-Webster as: to go away from, to withdraw from, to terminate association with. Synonyms include depart, abandon, desert. I remember how at first it seemed to happen gradually. There were some random ... Read More