This morning I had a coaching session with Jena Schwartz. Recently I finished two weeks of writing prompts with her in a small, private online group. It was two weeks of ME TOO and I AM NOT ALONE and LOOK AT ALL MY NEW WRITER FRIENDS WHO ARE BRILLIANT AND INCREDIBLE.
“Where are you with your writing?” she asked.
“I’m nowhere,” I answered. And then she brought up an essay Sue Monk Kidd wrote where she talks about a finite space between nowhere and now here. I need to find that essay STAT.
I’m in a period of transition.
I’m not writing, I haven’t been writing. I own that. It’s because writing is dangerous for me. Having shared so many of my personal journeys has resulted in messages being thrown at me about me…and then lots of internalizing. There’s also the fear of sucking: I have to be willing to write total shit. The problem is that I think no one else writes shit, only me. Must get out of that mindset.
We talked about the rules for calling yourself a writer. We talked about our new acronym, POW, Proof of Writing. I don’t have any left. But that’s about to change because Jena told me to get a notebook and I’m doing it. I have to write one thing every day. It doesn’t matter if I only write, “that red bird.” It doesn’t matter if I write crap. It doesn’t matter if I only write for ten minutes; there are no rules. Well, wait. Scratch that. The only rule, Jena added, is that if I catch myself with the negative self-talk, saying things like, “This is stupid,” I must stop and say, “This counts.”
And so…with Jena’s writing group and coaching session behind me, my next big thing (I’m working on doing something semi-regularly that scares me) is going to her Unfurl retreat in October. I’ve signed up already, despite being terrified. I’d love for you to join us! It will be a small group and I already know it’s going to be life altering for me. Read all about it here and sign up, as there are only a few spots left!
I’m off to get that notebook.
What are you working on?